Happy New Year folks,....

Putting the hot and sweet memories of 2008 by a side,. here we step into 2009,. and yes,. like always with great hopes and expectation. Well my new year's eve was a kick in the head - a wonderful start, well i'l tell about it later. But as far as now, i wish all my blog buddies a very very happy new year. 

A Journey to Tiruvannamalai the photocollection

Thiruvannamalai is a spiritual heaven in south India which attracts everyone who seeks to be self realization. The place is so divine and lot of people even from other countries visits Thiruvannamali. Thiruvannamalai aka Tiruvannamalai aka Arunachala Hill has several ashrams located around the hill. Arunachala temple (temple of lord shiva) is located near the hill, and Ramana Ashram of Ramana Maharishi, Yogi Ramsurat Kumar Ashram, Sheshadri Swami Ashram are the other famous places located around the Arunachala hill. A road around the
Tiruvannamalai hill covering 16 Km distance is also famous for a sacred practice called “Girivalam”. It is believed that people who circulate around the hill on full moon day through this road will get their needs satisfied. And once in a year at December full moon day is celebrated as “Karthigai Deepam”. At that day many people gather in Tiruvannamalai and they light a huge Ghee lamp in top of the hill. I have the habit of going to this place regularly not only because I am spiritual but also there is for sure some force that exists in this place that makes the mind peaceful and calm. The below is a video that I have created with all the photographs I took in the hill and in the places around the hill. I have tried a little narration in the video. The 1st video is the recent video that had been covered in the trip on Dec 6, 7th of 2008 and the second video is the photo collection before 5 years. 

This is the recent video:

Video before 5years

Words said by Kumar, unexpected from him

Kumar is my friend and my class mate, from the day i joined college i know him only as fun lover and sarcastic person, but this was not the same image after i read couple of his posts in his blog. He always used to talk about movies, make fun of friends, and some boys talks, but the below conversation is what made me write this post about him,

(This is our conversation in Gtalk)

me: hows the holidays,.

kumar: f*cking bad da

me: what you doing mostly ??

kumar: since my granny died i am not doing any thing

me: Macha why back to sad memories at the time like this da

       Cheer up man

kumar: what to cheer up

me: why still thinking about your granny and doing nothing ?

kumar: she passed away day b4 yesterday what should I think about then

me: ohh no,... that granny u mentioned in your blog ??

kumar: yes da

me: man tats really terrible da

        i thought u were speaking about long back stories da

kumar: no

me: sorry to hear da

kumar: ok

me: how did it happen da ??

kumar: heart attack

me: she was admitted in hospital na ??

       ohh kk

kumar: yes da

me: seriously sorry for speaking about silly things at this time da

kumar: ok da

 

(After some 5seconds)

 

kumar: http://i37.tinypic.com/29o3hx5.png

             see this still this is a still of shreya on Shivaji

             this is blue ray screenshot

me: wow,.. semma da,....

       but dai is it necessary at this time

kumar: why

me: you crazy bugger

kumar: you only told to cheer up na ?

me: dai athukunnu ithu too much da

       i thought u were sending your granny's pic

kumar: lol

             i don't have one

me: thuu

kumar: now see my status message da, u will think that will be apt for the moment

me: hmm

(The status message of him was “At toughest part of Life”)

me: yup,.

       kk,. dai neee sogamaana orey adiyaa sogama irukkey

       but cheer up nu sonna orey adiya cheer up ayidrey

kumar: i normally don't share my sorrows with anybody da even my parents

             that's the problem with me.,

me: that’s really a great practice man

Kumar: i share only happiness with anybody da

me: that's what makes u a better person than others, and that’s why people love to stay and hang     

       around with you

kumar: kalaikiriya

me: chee no da

       serious da,. like Charlie Chaplin said "i walk in rain to hide my sorrow”

kumar: only face will tell the truth at these times

kumar: ha ha i sleep alone in the bed with bed sheet on to hide my sorrows 

me: no macha ,. how can i kalaichify u at time like this

       Gethu machaa,. you can put this quote in your blog as words said by Kumar

        im gonna do that in my blog,. as words spoken by Kumar

kumar: lol

kumar: enna vachi comedy ethum pannaliye

me: cha illa acha,. really i became a fan of yours from the quote u said da

(End of Conversation)

So as i told him,. here is the words of Kumar,. 

" I sleep alone in the bed with bed sheet on to hide my sorrows "

It was heavy rain outside and Madipakkam totally drowned in flood

It was on 26th Nov there was a slight drizzling and cold, and many were happy about the climate because it had been very long time people here in Chennai (Tamilnadu - India) had seen a good rain. At the beginning the rain was a really life saver, saving all the people from the hot climate, but then it continued to pour for 3 days, non-stop blessing from the heaven really ruined the liking towards the rain. My place in Velachery - Madipakkam is a low lying area and so there was water stagnation all over,. The local bodies here arranged for boats to move people to safer places because the water level in streets was like 4feet and even more in some places. Water came into many houses even in mine. But my dad is so sentimental, so he didn't want to leave the home alone and also we have 2 dogs in our home, so we cant leave things just like that. We shifted all the valuable things like TV, sofa, and electronics stuffs to the shelves and we were spending time on bed. It was fun watching all the snakes moving here and there in the water, we got used to it, and there is so many snakes (little venomous) in our area, there was even birds from different country chilling out in my place. The most hectic thing was that they didn't provide electricity stating that any electrical accident could happen at this condition. The rain water stayed in my home for a day, and it stays for more than 6 days in streets. Some how after speaking to AE in EB we managed to get power supply after 5 days. Think of it, 5 days without lights, fan, AC, computer, internet, even landlines are dead, you cant charge your mobile phone,... Oh my God. Usually the rainy season makes water to stagnate in my place especially in Madipakkam - Ram nagar, Srinivasa nagar, Velachery - Vijayanagar, but this time it was heavy rain and people were very much upset about all the damage that the rain had caused. I even didn't have batteries for my Digi to take photos, but after two days the water level decreased and then went to shop to buy batteries. The below are the shots that i took which covers the water stagnation area in Madipakkam and in Velachery.

Click to Zoom images below

The new arrival “Spotted Great Dane” puppy

I am not much of a pet lover but its always good to have a Dog in every home particularly in India, especially in Tamil Nadu there are several thefts taking place and having a hunter family dogs, those ones will be sure helpful. We had previously a labor dog, which now got older, and within few days its going to blue cross, because its really hard to see your pet die after aging. First when my dad brought this one to our home, I was eager to see it cos I’ve heard that “Great Dane” breads can grow to the length of a human, 6ft and even above. But after seeing the dog I was totally disappointed, it was really small and the color was crappy. Of course pups will be small when they are young, but the color pattern appeared to be really wicked and more of a stray dog. So seeing its appearance and funny look I named it as “Scrubby”. Yeah its very active, and growing fast, but its hard to manage a pup. Also now our old lab is to leave, and its name is “Slash” this is the picture of Slash, the black Lab dog.

I love growing beard because it gives a wise feeling

See this post may seems to be silly, but the thing is that everyone who i see around were asking me whether any love failure. See like ive told several times i never fell in love, that was a crush before. That too the crush was like having a liking to pick up a cute little baby in your arms, but when the baby hesitates or cries, then you would just leave her to her mom and admire her from distance. That was the same condition that happened to me. And this beard growing has nothing to do with that. Actually i have the habit of growing long beard in the exam times because i have a crazy belief that growing beard will make me wise., and wiseness is essential at exam times rite ?. Also i have the hobby of going to a spiritual place in every semester holiday, and the beard will make me feel like a saint, a wise man, it gives a divine feel. And here is one of my picture i like to share,. look at it, and try to imagine the ambiance that i would have felt at that place and at that time.It was morning 5.30 and bright sky with orange light, it was last December, winter morning cold.
I and my friend stayed at the top of that mount several feet above the ground. At a place like this is where you can feel so many new things and your mind will be so fresh. Much eager to go there even in this December too. It was for this reason i particularly grow beard in the exam times. Now this time i have a interview in middle so i guess the beard is not gonna last for long time. How ever the beard always works well with me, its kind of lucky symbol for me. I wrote all the exams well this time, except DSP, but even DSP(Digital Signal Processing) did quite well than expected. So i love growing beard, but i would shave regularly just because of a advice from a close well wisher of mine.

A day for cute angels, stars, the most important day

Its Children's day, who could resist the smile of a cute little baby. The innocent smile on their face, they are so happy unaware of the bullshits in the world. And we can watch a cute baby for months straight without even food or water. Here is some cute baby pic i have collected ., look at them and tell me what is the beautiful thing in the world ?

Its really hard to control the heart

Several times in several situations we could have experienced this in our life, heart taking over our mind. Our mind always analyses and predicts the reaction of each action that we would plan or intend to do. But even though our mind would suggest not to do something, its our stupid heart that will not listen to our mind. At this condition we would actually be doing what our heart says. And this is due to power of heart that is higher than mind, whereas saints meditate and concentrates their mind on things so that improving their power of mind over heart is high. Hence it is always good do things what your mind says than listening to your heart.

Meditation and yoga brings a great power to brain, speaking about yoga or meditation doesn't mean that you have to be spiritual or i am not speaking about superficial things, its just that silence and calmness is always a great force for a human being.

Timon the most optimistic character

“Hakuna Matata” – No worries
This great phrase invented by highly genius soul “Timon”, well technically it was actually “Rafiki” who would have coined the word in the movie, but the word comes from Rafiki as a reflection of Timon so it belongs to Timon. I always admire the character “Timon” the most in the lion king. Nathan Lane had really spoken well through Timon. My favorite quote from Timmy boy is

“And if he falls in love tonight,
It can be assumed, his care free days
With us are history, In short our pal is doomed”

Timon is a hell of sarcasms and I love his style, I just always wanna be like Timon in life than being Simba. What could you ask more in life, a mentality and character of Timon is far enough. Well sometimes I also dream for Rafiki’s wisdom. And to add to life, a friend like Pumba will be perfect. Always reality is hard and strange with its ugly face whereas imaginary things are great to go for. Both Nathan Lane and Ernie Sabella had done great vocals in the Lion kings, particularly the accent and the pitch at which both of them speaks is so amazing and wonderful. Of course Lion kings 1, 2 and 3 had a great welcome from people but I am wondering will there be Lion kings 4, because if there would be a part 4 of the movie in future it will be awesome to watch.

In my study holidays things were so much distracting

I really felt that this post is essential to be shared with people so that you can understand my condition on the study leave. First couple of days in the beginning of my study leave went fine with considerable amount of study, but the third day it started. Boringness, when I sit in front of a book it appeared to be like the most annoying thing. So thought ok, lets make a little change to mind and then sit back to study. So I went online in gtalk asking my friends what they were doing, many replied not started studying and many had the same status “bored”. (Manasukku konjam santhoshamaa irunthuthu), If I get in front of computer then its really hard to move away from there because I would be doing browsing, chatting, and other works so sincerely so that I sometime i will not be aware how time flies. Thus I some how managed to move my butt away from the computer and again opened the book with a oscillating mind. Ohhh no, all the stuffs appeared new to me, well it’s a simple student psychology that we will not study in college days thinking that we can make it in study holidays. And when its study holiday time then we would compromise our brain by telling “lets do it later, there is hell of time” and I am not an exception for it.

It was half a day past, and this time I managed to study half a unit in a local author book studying for 45mins straight, and mind was whispering to myself (“dai romba padikkathada kolambida podhu”) “don’t study too much you’l get confused”. So went to watch TV, I usually don’t have the habit of watching TV, but now at this time I felt I can sit even on a hot stove instead of sitting before a book. Chutti TV was my preference, there was a cartoon (World short stories), good to watch. In middle my mom said she wanna watch a serial show, (“Cha,. Study holidayla oru manushaan nimmathiya TV kooda paaka mudiyala, inna veedu da ithu”) I shouted at her and went inside my room and got locked up inside. I don’t have the habit of sleeping in day time (exception in class rooms). Then I was looking through the window from my room, it was little dark outside (athukkula poluthu poiducha, no chance, time poogaavey illaye), no it was not evening, its just cloudy. There was a call from Mother Nature, cool breeze with wonderful scenery. It dragged me to my house top, as my place is in Madipakkam (In Chennai – India) a calm area and water, grass field around my home I like to spend my time sitting on house top and watch the beauty all alone. I went upstairs welcomed by cool breeze, it was before rain the wind blowing to blow away clouds, and it was dark creating an anxiety whether it will rain or not. But the climate was so good, after which it started drizzling while I was sitting there. Small droplets of water pouring on me, I didn’t have the heart to get away from there finding a shelter. So I just stayed there and got wet, and a little thought strike into my mind saying what if you get cold, its your exam time be careful. If someone would have seen me that time they would have thought “is he taking bath in rain?, does Chennai suffering from so much scarcity?”. I went down to my home and sat back in front of book in the rhythm of rain water dropping I just tried to study that’s all.........,

Lab exams and studies vague weekend and nothing to do

The past week had been really a vague week for me, really nothing special happened except a new arrival of a puppy to my home. I was preparing for my university lab exams and the week had been a complete boring time of my life. Usually i have the habit of updating my blog in the weekends but this weekend i really ran out of subjects. Well i could really write a post on my university labs and how i helped many students in my class and the other class to get output in their univ lab, but i don't wanna get into any troubles. But like people say (Naalu perukku nallathu senja, yethuvumey thappu illa) i felt great about helping people with the univ lab. They all thanked me, even the other section guys and said "theivamey unga kaiya kaalaa nanachi kumbudromnu" (means, you are our saviour) and they even planned for giving me bumps (a traditional way in India to greet another person) thank God i escaped. Felt really great for my work and like the old saying "nalu perukku help senja, unakku help thaanaa kadaikkum (means if you help others, you will receive help) i too did my lab exams well. And happy for finishing all my labs in the entire B.E.

Other than that i have university exams ahead and has this commitment to work hard, stay in hostel and stuffs, so i guess there will be a long gap in posting any new posts. Well study holidays have already started and i am really trying to do things, plan things, learn thing but finally ending up with nothing. Just trying to read something from book for my exams, really afraid of DSP (digital signal processing) paper in this semester because people call it as Degree stopping paper(DSP) in short. Phooffff,. really its a long breath to take when i think about all the exams ahead and works that had to be done. I have to take the books, dust them off, identify the current semester books, sit for study, and its a looooooooong journey to go. :P

Google chrome crash occurs often

I never expected such a poor browser from world famous google. I had a great expectation before installing the browser, but after installing the browser there was regular errors with it. Recently had experienced to see world famous company's browser crash for no reason. I was just browsing and suddenly found some error and couldn't open google chrome any more. There was a crazy graphic image and a message saying unfortunately chrome had crashed. I uninstalled the browser and tried to reinstalled, was going fine till a week, and another time the browser crashed. And now it became the regular habit of chrome to crash. lol funny to hear rite,. but its true. Hope google will atleast take steps in future to reduce these kind of silly and crazy errors later.

Dooms day 2012 says Mayan’s Calendar and I Ching

This time it seems pretty sure that there is gonna be something big ahead for us on December 21st, 2021. People may be tired of listening to the prophecies that says end has come, it was same on my side to. But I had been reading and analyzing about this Dooms day 2012 topic for a while and found that there is something serious with it. Mayan’s calendar is developed by the Mayan tribes of Middle America. Actually those people are time keepers of their period, their calculations were so accurate that we can predict a solar eclipse of our period from their calendar even though the calendar was designed 6000 years ago. The calendar was more accurate than our own modern day calendar. But the calendar does not show any details above the date December 21st of 2012. Also their prophecy says that the Dec 21st 2012 is the end day of the world. This is the case one side, but on the other side I Ching is a Chinese prediction which also says the same thing. I Ching have already predicted several happenings before, and even the Mayan’s prophecy too has predicted many events. But both Mayan and I Ching are from different ends of world, Mayan from America and I Chang from China, but the similarity of both is amazing.
Apart from the above there are also several prophecies which says the end day is December 21st 2012. Nosterdomas prophecy also predicts the same, bible have spoken about this dooms day.

And the above said are olden day prophecies but the shocking news is that a web-bot developed to predict the stock market changes have amazing ability to spider through all the web pages and predict many things. This Web-Bot had predicted the September 11, attack on America correctly before. This Web-Bot now predicts that December 21st 2021 is going to be the dooms day of the world. But if this is wrong information why everything does points to the same day amazingly. This puts into a question that, what if the Dec 21st 2012 is really the end. Anyway lets hope for the best, that’s what we can actually do.
But now recently scientists found a black hole that lies in center of our galaxy, and in the date December 21st 2012 earth will line up exactly on a straight line to all planets and sun and because of that there could a pole shift that can occur. This Pole shift means the north and South Pole location will change because of a shift in the earth’s position. This was predicted by scientists of our period, and this pole shift will cause Tsunami, Volcanic eruptions, Earth quakes on earth.

Here is my Orkut Story

As I’ve already mentioned I don’t know about Orkut till my diploma, and while I joined SSN, seniors asked me whether I joined Orkut,. Well at that time I thought Orkut is actually a tuition center for engineering. Lol,. Ya I know that’s funny,. Then they told me later that orkut is a very big social network where you can keep in touch with school and college friends. It was always troubling me that I’ve actually lost contact with one of my friend from school days. Actually I lived in Saidapet(a place in Chennai in India) while I was young, and I did my primary education in a school called “Little flower Matriculation school-Saidapet”. While I was doing my LKG and UKG itself I was a gangster, I had friend circle, all cute little buddies. My best buddy at that time was a boy called “Prasanna”, well he is a Brahmin(Why I’m mentioning it in particular, u’ll know later).

Prasanna and I used to hang around most of the time, and we were so close. We did everything together, going to toilet, sitting in same bench, telling rhymes, I still remember those days, they are just bright and clear in my mind. He used to share my food, but Prasanna’s mother who was a Tamil teacher on the same school didn’t like him sharing my food (yeah it’s the regular Brahmin and non-Brahmin stuff) but still I was a vegetarian then.
I remember once, we were sitting in the back bench in a play hour, it was heavily raining and no teacher was there in class. A girl was sleeping on the front bench lying down on the writing desk. And we had a deal,. 1st I went to the front bench pinched the sleeping girl in her hand and came back,. She woke up and turned around and slept, next he went and pinched her, it was again and again. Next day the girl came with her elder brother and he was warning both of us. Believe me it happened in my LKG, lol, I still remember the scene in my mind clearly.
(Here is a pic for you to give you a clear picture to show how we were fooling around, two boys in the pic is me and Prasanna,. and one lying on the bench describes the little girl)


I and Prasanna were best kinder garden pals., until a terrible thing happened in my life. While we was studying 2nd standard my dad got promotion with transfer. And since my dad has to work in another city, he want me and my mom to live in our granny’s home in a different place (Thiruvotriuor).
So I was small then, and I had to say good bye to him, and since I was young I didn’t had any idea of getting his contact details or address. In those days only some people had phones.
I left him that day, and haven’t seen him from then, but I always used to remember him. Had this guilt of not keeping in touch with my best friend. I always wanted to go to Saidapet and find him again, but I made my move only after completing my diploma,. I went to the school that I studied (Little flower Mat Hr.) and asked about him and his mom who was working there. But they said they don’t have his address and his mom left the school it seems.

Later after I joined SSN college, I became a member in Orkut and found that school’s community in Orkut, I joined the community and sent a mail to all members in the community about what happened. And amazingly I got reply from 2 persons stating that they know him and they will find his contact and inform me. So I was waiting for a long time. Then finally one day I received a message which said “Hai, I am Prasanna, what you want, who are you?”
I was hurt so badly, after all I thought he would atleast remember me. But he told me that he don’t remember anything. He even did not accept my friend request in the beginning and even didn’t give his phone number. Later he clarified with his mom about me and gave his phone number. Thank God atleast his mom remembered me. But now we are just stranger, of course he is in my friend list but he wont talk to me and neither do I,. Don’t search for him in my orkut account,. He is in the friend list of my old orkut account.
This is the sad story of mine about my old pal and orkut,. I still remember the days we tasted the eraser and pencil leads,. But today things are way different. I guess that’s life, Moving on is the major thing that always we do in life.

Vj and Ra the Dumb and Dumber

Here is a post about my best pal and our friendship. In fact Ramani is the only person who is my real crime mate. We do everything together in college lab, assignments, study, programming(some lies are permitted) and even pee together. We are really crazy guys, always cracking jokes and get kalaichified by people. When it comes to getting correction in record, it will be a big war. I would have to take print outs and his job is to align them and arrange it in file.

When it comes to lab, both of us are novice at programming and, he will pretend like typing the program and i will pretend to debug the program, (but actually we used to get the program from some others and he will type some funny words pretending to code, i will be deleting the blank lines and comment lines in the program). And for sure we cannot stop from laughing by the funny things that we do.
But he is a ultimate sombari boy and i am extra energetic person,. I am sure that they can make "Dumb and Dumber" part 2 out of both of us.
Well i am Jim carry, and he is the other side kick,. lol,. seriously he had been more supportive in some tough conditions in college life. Always tries to boost me up,.. We are more like "Timon and Pumba" where i am Timon and he is "Pumba",. because many times unexpectedly i let him to some minor troubles. But yet we are good friends,. And i like to dedicate one of my favorite song to him and for our friendship,.... Well the song is exactly written for both of us,.
We both are close and Timon and Pumba will be the exact resemblance of us..,

Scoldings, troubles, problems

I was really a silent and decent guy for a very long time, and i was bored with my life back then. I tried to be nice to people always, and talking philosophy, taking things serious, being really sensitive, but i didn't make any big deal out of it. Even a people of my own class would not identify me back then, because i used to be really a dumb sticking to myself. 

And later i decided its my life, and its just a small period i am gonna be alive in this world. So just thought to come out of my commotions, emotions and be a cool headed person, fooling around and playing with people. After the tremendous change i was getting to know people, and people started to know me. I started to build a lot of relations, sometimes i used to play too much with people and head up with breaking up with some kind of friends. Sometimes people come to me by themselves and talk to me, play with me. And sometimes those people will cause troubles to me and finally would tell me that they hate me and never wanna talk to me anymore. There are also times where i start to go behind some particular people and which would lead to embarrassment. But there are several times i meet people and move with them building strong bonds. Thats why i still have a big circle of friends who smiles when they see me (real smile), and care for me when i am down. But living several days in this world i've learnt only one thing, happiness is no longer the same, sadness is no longer the same,.. Friends are not always friends, enimies are not always enimies. Things changes, life is changing, people are changing, and i too do change.

All the things ever implies to me that i am becoming famous, and my name will be remembered by people and i am setting a strong memoral of my name, even though i go away or get lost completly. I am Vj and i will be remembered...

Parallel Universe theory could it be true

From ancient time of Einstein, it had been really confusing when we speak about relativity and Quantum physics or Quantum theory. Now another theory based on quantum which exists and cannot be denied is the parallel universe theory according to which there are several parallel universe that exists similar to ours and there are people like you and me,. a xerox copy of us existing on those universe doing weird things. And according to the quantum theory combined with the parallel universe theory, there are different patterns or weird things happening on the parallel universe,. of example lets say I've written this blog now and you are reading it, and in the parallel universe it could be the vise versa,.

It is really complicated to understand and to accept,. so understanding the readers mentality i provided above with a short description. But if you would like to go on ,. the below is a detailed explanation of Quantum and Parallel theories.

First what is quantum, relativity is what we are already familiar with according to which everything happens as an effect of something. But this is only true in the enlarged view, i.e in the real world, what if we move on to atoms ?., the path of electrons are unpredictable and everything within atom happens weird. This leads to quantum theory which says things occurs randomly and anything is possible in a quantum world. But how can you say that anything is possible, if i can't able to fly high, or if i list out the things that i cannot do ,..... So this questions let to emergence of a new theory from our scientists that what we see around us are parallel universe billions of miles apart from our universe. And they contain humans like us,. our very own xerox copy on those universe, and what we are not doing or lets say not able to do here in our universe is what actually they can do,. or they are doing in their universe.... Lets say i loved a girl here, and she hates me so i broke up with her in this universe, then in parallel universe the girl could have accepted my love and i could have been dating her there.
This post can be continued in future with respect to the response i get from the users, and be frank to post your comments and questions.

My SSN Friends Part 1

In the beginning when i joined SSN after finishing my diploma education from a very strict college (Sai ram polytechnic) i was a baby, i was so immature. I had a small circle in my mind, and i lived within a small circle without interacting much with peoples around. I was more of a silent guy, calm, less talking, and looking weird. But after entering the SSN, things were really different. The first day in my college bus, i was raged by seniors (like i mentioned in my previous post). I fought with seniors and even scolded a senior and bet him. From then nobody in my bus was speaking to me. I used to sit in front seats of the college bus, and was more like a school kid. 

Many were speaking bad words, and i wasn't comfortable, because way back on those days i used to thing even "Maiyuru" as a big bad word. But later i got used to these kind of things and now i am familiar with bad words and i speaks a lot casually. But i had a reason, i wanted to mingle with people, and be a people's person, wanna be a gangster. So i adopted myself to fit in all activities that appeared mean to me in the beginning. Like in beginning i didn't understand what is there with looking at girls. But in college bus stop all my class mates would gather and walk around watching girls. I too started to walk with them just to get close with pals. 

I started making fun of people, got back some too,. these all things made me lot of friends. Now i have so many people in SSN,. where as in my diploma college i even don't know even a person in my class.

Life brings a lot of changes, and its always good to change,. because change in life brings experience. Then i learnt a great lesson from my SSN college,. 

"Boys are mean, we do all the bullshits, we are whom we are, we are 100% original"

Then after days passed by my seniors in bus turned to be close and i was sarcastic making fun of them too.  Yeah i lost somethings after changing, but also gained someother things. I became big boy after joining college, .. And my friends and secrets will be revealed in my following posts that are to be followed. 

Name Vj got me into trouble

I thought the name Vj is so stylish and gethu so changed my orkut name,. but later one fine day it was my English Communication Lab,. And we were given a topic to discuss, and it was a GD going on that class. Well since I am poor at talking in public, I decided some points to speak on,. But unfortunately a girl before my group spoke all the points that ive collected. And I was the immediate next group to speak and my group people thought I would speak first,. And when I started, as all the points ive collected were already spoken,. So I started as “I completely agree with what (Girl’s Name) said. Avlo thaanga sonnen,. The whole class was laughing at me, and even the lab professor. The most horrible thing was that, the girl’s name starts with “J”,. and that it,. They built a new story that I named myself as Vj because “V” denotes Vijay and “J” denotes etc etc..,

I always love making fun of my friends and make people around me laugh,. I am a hell of sarcasm,. But after that incident I understood the pain of getting kalaichified. Before that incident paarapacham pakkama ellarayum kalaichikitu irundhen,. But than,. Parapacham paakkaama ellaarum yenna kalaikka aaramichutanunga,. Ithula koduma innanaa,. Nan antha ponnu kooda pesanathu kooda illa,.. lol,

So this was one part of the story,. Ippidi naan gethu yetharathukku vecha peralaye yenna vethu akkitanunga those idots so called my friends, Naanum kalaichittu pongadaa nu vittuten,. Later I composed music for paradigm,. Our college symposium main presentation,. Lot of people appreciated my work,. Mainly I named myself as “Vj” because the name appeared to be more musical. But after that presentation music thing, those stupid buggers started calling me “Sound party”, ada arivu off anavangalaa,. Ithukku thaan naney Vj nu oru nalla pera vechikitu irudheney da,. Arppa patharugala,. And this was how I was cornered and went helpless….., :z

Legacy of the name Vj

I was born and there was a quarrel between my dad and my grandmother regarding naming me. My dad suggested a name “Vijay”, because its stylish,. But my grandmother wanted to name me as “Ganesh” because I was sick while born and was incubated for 3 days, so she prayed to Lord Ganesh (Hindu God) and that’s how I got a name “Vijay Ganesh”. But then after I grew up and came to college, I was making friends around the world through internet and also I was so crazy about music.

I made many online friends from different countries, one from Canada, two from America, London, France, and even from China and recently from Austria. I always dreamed to be a world citizen and a musician. I was inspired by many Musicians,. One day while I was chatting through voice with my friend Jay (Sorry for calling you friend Jay bro) ,. Now he is more close as a relative to me,. He said that most of Indian names are difficult to pronounce but my name is very easy to pronounce,. He gave me the name “VJ” and I was happy about it. And since the name more resembled to the pattern MJ(Michael Jackson) and EJ(Elton John) I then changed my orkut name and email id such things and even my friends started calling me Vj.

Paradigm ofcourse i can forget that (Making of music)

In this post i'd like to share my experience on creating the music for my college symposium presentation video. First when i was asked to create music for the presentation video, i was feared because, 1st thing is that i am not much interested to work for the college which gives me low internal mark, and second is that even though if i compose a music there will be negative comments about it from people. But it was my close pal chocks, who actually believed in me and asked personally to help him. Already he was alone working with the Animation, and i dont wanted him to struggle with music to the video. So thats how i got into picture.
Chocks told me about the theme of the video, and he asked me to compose a heavy beat music before he completed the video. I just went home and work on for 3 days, trying to compose something ending with dissatisfaction. And finally i managed to compose a track that made me feel great. But chocks finished the video on a evening and sent me the video, only a day in middle left for the presentation. And i matched the video with the music track i've composed. I was panic, the music didn't suite the video. It was pain in my ass,.. How could i answer him,. he believed me, and i really have to do something and fast. I was told from people, even from Chocks that if i could'nt compose a good music, steal from anything atleast. I left without any choice, i searched for many tracks in the internet and atlast found a track which atleast went fine with the master piece of Chocks and i added some beats and effects to the track..,
Video of Chocks :


But the other terrible thing was i was given another video from 3rd year guys and asked to compose music. That video already contained music but it was cine tracks from Billa(new), Shivaji, and so on,. the beats were heavy and suited well for the video already. But they were cine tracks and hence they gave the video to me for modifying the audio with some western beats.
I took it as a challenge and mixed the video with the track i've already composed. Thank God, it worked, but there was little modification,.. I have to sync the track with video effects that keep changing constantly. And Since i composed the music with Sony Acid loops and Fl studio, i was able to clearly synchronize the track for the video. And finally it worked great,. i was happy to listen to the music that ive composed. When i heard the whole composition for the first time with the video,. i stood up on the chair where i was sitting, and jumped on it saying to myself that "I have done a Dope".., repeating the same lines i was jumping and the 3rd time when i jumped, my legs directly penetrated into the plastic chair on which i was standing and had to face a problem with my family.
This is how i made it,. well the music ive composed may not appear great to others but as a composer (original composer) it was a music from heaven to me.
The below is the video that i composed music,. 100% own work..,


I can forget about the things happened in Paradigm,. but i cannot forget the above experience..., :)

Life no longer remains happy to me

You may think why am i so negative, but if you read through this post, you will understand the problem, the problem is not only mine but of many others like me. They say i am an adult now,. now do you understand my problem, if you don't read through,.


I was a baby, learning a lot and lot while i was young and finally i fitted myself into babyhood, doing things properly what a baby would do. It was hard in the beginning to get started as a baby, but i got practiced and settled as a baby. Then one day, immediately without any prior intimation they told i became a boy, and they dropped me into Kinder garden. Its now in my childhood, i got whippings in my butt and asked to do my home work and stuffs. It took me so long to settle with my childhood as a kid. It was really really hard, and i tried, tried finally at my age of 12, i learned how to be a boy with all the school and things. And again they got me into trouble saying that now i am a grown up kid, so they expected different things from me, and the wanted me to change,. then it was hard but i did my level best to cross it and comfortably settled in the grown up kid state. Then it ended with college boy,. another hectic level of life,. took a long time to change from school boy to college boy,. and even now i am more of a school kid and not really completely became a college boy. And those punks came again and telling me now that i am an adult now, and gotta do things on my own,. they want me to work for my living. hmm, . sure i will get a job,. but when i turn back and look back at the path that have traveled coming so far, my head is spinning.

Its ok till now,. but i don't know what more changes will they bring in my life,. the changes they creates in my life sometimes make me forget that its my life. Its not only me who is facing this problem but all of them,. i know and for many they don't take this as a problem. But its hard you gotta accept that, and really so many tears and joy in the path of travel, makes to loose hope in life. And the punks ive been talking about are about the society that we live in.

Quantum theory and Unification theory total mind f'ck

Well Einstein said there is a reason, but what could be the reason is the question which lead to the birth of Quantum theory. If there are certain constrains that involves in the happening of something then we may call it relativity, but what if we something happens randomly, obviously we would call it as Quantum. But what if our knowledge is small to identify the constrain of a happening and hence misjudge it as Quantum. Else the other chance could be, what if the relativity is part of randomness. This is getting huge, kindles the brain and once again bringing the same lines in front of us, "there are certain things human cannot decide or understand". Well there had been same confusions in past which are solved in the presence. But even in future, even if a solution is found for this question, there will still be theories to prove. Like the truth and false, like good and evil, hard and soft, light and dark, always there is a contradiction that exists. Positive and negative, a will still exist until the world reaches its end. Similarly Quantum and Relativity is one such pair as mentioned above, but still both are inter-related and inseparable.

Jim Carrey gonna rock in "Yes Man"

Jim Carrey, my favorite, his recent work after the "Horton hears a who" is gonna be "Yes Man". The movie has more expectation among international Jim fans because it had been really long time. Jim did his latest movie Number 23 in 2007 and he didn't appear in movies from then. Even in "Horton hears a who" he just gave voice to the elephant Horton. The movie 'Yes Man' appears to be a humor movie like expected, and i believe Jimmy gonna surprise us with his unexpected sense of humor in this movie too. Zooey Deschanel is the heroine in this movie, she is hot looking but never known her in a humor movie. I watched her movies "The Happening" and in one of my favorite movie "Bridge to Terabithia". In both the movies she had a important and serious role. Jim is for sure gonna mess with her and the movie is gonna be sure fun to watch. But the release date is only December of this year (2008). So Jim fans has to wait till then to watch his work, and also i am waiting in particular to see Zooey's performance with Jim. The story of "Yes Man" is assumed to be that, Jim says 'Yes' to everything for 6months to bring positive and interesting changes and that leads him to trouble and turn the whole happening fun. Lets wait to see what is the real thing that happens in the movie.

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I got myself into trouble but i deserve it

Warning : This post is explicit and may contain words that are explicit

I said i wont talk about love in my blog here after but this post is different, and i hope the readers would enjoy reading this post. And forgive me if you think that this is a bad post. It was a Saturday evening(07-Sep) i was just visiting some random blogs through blogcatalog, and also i was adding some friends to my friend list through blogcatalog site, And randomly i visited a blog and read a post in it, actually the words in that post were awesome describing a travel to a place. But i didn't really finish reading the whole post. I saw the profile of the blogger and in which many people commented that the author of the blog, Pascal is a great person and everyone commented great about the blog, so i added him as friend. He was from Israel.

I got a comment in my blogcatalog which says

"wish i could on on my knees closer to thank...love you, pascal."

I thought that he is so nice and i replied

"Its my pleasure to add you as friend,. love you"

the "love you", these words i used because as a reply to the words he used and i am spiritual so loving every living thing is my aim, so i used those words. But then i was out for a big surprise.

He sent me a mail with his picture which says,

"Pascal, dressed in red&white in the middle of the picture. Which part of the world do you live?? I'd like to know more about you"

I was always interested in making friends around the world,. so i thought that i found a good friend without putting much effort. So i replied

"Thanks for letting me know abt you sir,. nice post.., I am from India (Tamil Nadu)"

then his mail came which goes on as follows,

"I realized you were from India, but where is Tamil Nadu located?? I lived in Bengalor for 1 year. Any picture of yours I could see closer??"

I was not aware of anything so, i sent a reply and a close picture of mine, my reply was...

"I am a student, doing my bachelors degree in computer science,. and im from India,. I was attracted by ur blog because the words and posts were about internal feelings of heart that comes out about everything you see around,. glad to meet you and speak to you.., evolution is amazing that brings people of same kind closer even if they stay far away from each other,.

This is my pic I've sent with this mail"

But only after sending this mail started reading his blog thoroughly and the contents were explicit and i was very much shocked to know that the guy is homosexual person. I read his posts one by one,. i studied about a feeling of a homo, a person who is different to the society. The posts were too explicit, to be frank,. i felt yukky feeling to read, but the lines explained the sorrow and need of a human being,. World is different and has people with totally different thoughts and feelings. This is what i learned. And i was much shocked by his reply,

"YOU LOOK SE S_XY!!!!

Wish i could make you happy...

indeed, emotions and searching for REAL
and genuine love bring people together, no matter

how far or the distances. souls are stronger. "

this seemed more gay talk, and i was so uncomfortable to read his reply. But i didn't wanna be hard and rough turning my back on him and scold him for what he sent. My reply for his mail goes on like follows.,

"Sir,

I am not a homo,. i am straight,. and i feel yeeeewwww when i think myself as a gay,. but that doesn't mean that i don't respect or i couldn't understand the feelings of homosexuals., I am more philosophical and loves to learn about different people in the world,. so i just enjoy reading your blog thats all,. and i can be ur friend.., "

This is what i replied, but the reply which he gave for mine was sarcastic,..

"I understand quite well.

Indeed, we can remain friends!

I have never raped anyone !LOL! "

How funny,. i couldn't stop from laughing .,, and replied to him

"lol..., Rofl....., thanks for understanding pal,. i really love your style of writing and view of seeing things man,. I will keep reading ur post bcos, i like to know more abt ur life,.abt ur commitments.., i hope you keep in touch with this friend.., "

And i thought that this would be the end of our conversation atleast for a while,. But i got an immediate reply from him.

"you are really s*xy! LOVE YOU EYES!

bright, clever and somewhat cheeky!
You must be fun too!

My life is 100% as described in the blog...
Actually, they are extracts online as a 'demo''
for publishers until I finish writing it in 2.months
and get the manuscript get to be sent to Paris

publishers "

Well to be frank, i was happy about the compliments he gave regarding my appearance, and surprised that he is writing a book out of his experience and that is going to be published. So i replied

"Thanks for ur comments,. ive read ur blog,. it contains more and more info only about your love life,. is there anyother thing that you give more importance than ur love life ??., wat about your family..,? "

then he sent me a reply saying that,

"it is deeply explained all the way through...as you read....

my love life is NIL. My sex life life is full.
Family, dreams and quest for happiness and
philosophy will be expressed as you have time to read

more... "

This was the end mail for that day,. i was bit afraid to continue with him,. but also felt that he is a human, so there is nothing wrong in making friendship with him,. i am what i am, he is not going to change anything. But next day morning i was really scared by his mail,. And its subject was "My beautiful one..," well he mentioned about me..,

"Thought of you last....

Sucked a handsome guy, thought of you
as he shot in my deep throat.
he sat back and relax in front of a hetero
porn movie (he's straight) as i was down
at his knee working hard to make him blow.
The guy loved it..

Pascal. "

After seeing this mail,. i got a silly thought in my mind,. "what would have he done with my pic last night" lolz., But i seriously dont like the sexual conversation so i sent him a mail which says,.

"Hai there pal,.

Now u are really scaring me,. lol., plzzz stop such comments,. ofcourse i like the poetic flow of ur words, but the meaning is what troubles me man,. I know how much u r passionate towards sex,. but there are so many homo outside, from which you can find your man for whom u r searching all these days, the one who understands ur feelings. I wish u find him soon, but i am way different man,. i dont have liking towards love or sex,. i am more of a philosopher kind of person. Anyway thanks for ur mail,.

Ur friend

Vj "

So then i knew would send me a immediate reply. And yes his reply arrived which said,

"I KNOW! But I only suck married men.

AS CLEARLY EXPLAINED HERE;

(He sent me on of his post address)
MY BRAIN DOES THE REST.
I do not like 'gays'...
SORRY IF I OFFENDED YOU!

I DID NOT MEAN TO DO SO! "

So this is what happened, and it may be funny to read. But this is what happened. I should have read his blog fully before commenting or adding him as friend, so i deserve it,. But he is still a human, a good soul, but with activities and character different from regular people thats all.