Loneliness is what most of us would have experienced at times, but when you ask me, i spend all my times lonely. There where times where i had no one to listen to what i say, i had stayed without any close friends, even now i don't have one. First i have to make clear that i doesn't mean that i have no friends, but no close friends. A friend is a one who you hang around with or spend some time or to the at most getting some help from him. But a true friend is one with whom you share your inner feelings. At those times i used to walk to terrace in my house top and speak to myself (you may think that i may be mad to do that, but i assure you that im certainly not). Its always good to have a person of your kind around with whom you can share your thoughts. I too felt the same, and i imagined a person, and he will look very similar to me both physically and mentally. And i named him as "Shiva", and i used to share with him everything almost everything.
Those times where hard, even though i was happy doing that, i don't liked to sustain in the same state. So i tried to figure out a true friend, and my search is still in progress.
Speaking about my friends, so called friends, i didn't have anyone in my school days. Really don't know why, but its true. And in my diploma, i had a friend who was very close. His name is Muthu, and he was ready to do anything for me. And i thought i had found a friend of mine. But later when i joined Engineering, he got a job and hence contact between us is not regular.
And in engineering college i doesn't like to stay alone, so i was very much eager to be one among in a gang, and certainly i found one.
And when im lonely i spend the time with good MUSIC, music dives into my soul, gives pleasure, takes me to a new world., i can remember a world with no human, but can never imagine a world without Music,... Long live Music
But sill my search for a soul mate is on and on and on.......
